Day before FHT 18th nov 2005

Had to fly with Darshan today for a checkride. God...I was so stressed. Bottom line was that this flight did not go as I'd hoped.

Skills wise. Everything was good.
Airmanship wise. It was all fucked up.

Failed to notice aircraft 1 or 2 times. Just plain missed them.
Descended in control zone My excuse was due to cloud. (this is not allowed. Must maintain altitude in Czone)
Live helicopter circuit and I drifted into the chopper circuit.
Did not follow checklists to the letter. (Ok...I think this is minor but still...It was a big deal to DSG)

These were some of the mistakes I made. Really got screwed in the debrief. I think the debrief lasted longer than the flight. Nearly broke down again. I was like thinking oh Shit...No way I can pass the FHT. My conversation with Darshan after the debrief went like this.
Me: "Hey Sir...If you want to cancel the FHT. Go ahead."
DSG: "No.. I am not going to cancel. Why?"
Me: "I mean i really screwed up today. What if I do the same tmr?"
DSG: "You will be fine. JUST keep a lookour and do not make up any rules of your own."
DSG: "I taught you everything that you should know. I've taught all these students *points to the alumni board* everything I taught you and all of them passed first time. If you follow what I taught and do not make up 'colin you's rules and you will be fine."
Me:" Yeah ok"
DSG: " Remember, if you fail =. It means I have failed also."
Me: "Hell. I won't fail. You are the best around. OK man see you tmr."
DSG: "Ok. Oh and leave the girls alone tonight, you can go do whatever with them after you get your PPL."
Me: "HEY! WTF! I don't do those things! But yeah ok I'll get enough sleep."

YEah.... Went home did some mental flying and studied the technical stuff, load sheets, performance sheets and logs.

Before going home, me and Zhi Chen went to Cine to get A birthday present for Darshan. His birthday coincidentally was on my FHT date tomorrow. Got him a Zippo with his name engraved.