Keep the Faith

Mad Dog told me again and again to forget this dream. His uncle, dad and all... and they have the right. His uncle is an SIA Captain.

Man, the emotions that flowed through me that instant just now while on the phone was more than I could handle. I JUST had to say "Hey man I call u back later." After hanging up. I felt a mixture of emotions that were so strong. Anger, Bitterness, Fear. Here was a man who had everything I had ever wanted telling me this. Man, If he were in my shoes I'd bet he'd be singing the same tune as I am. But don't get me wrong, He's a great friend...Honest and trustworthy. One of my Best Friends ever.

He keeps telling me I have brains. TO be absolutely honest. I RATHER not have this much brains but had the ABILITY and EYESIGHT and HEALTH as he does. He says I can use brains to make lots of money...BUT HE IS ALREADY RICH AND PEOPLE WITH BRAINS DO NOT NECESSARILY MAKE IT! Moreover, I rather fly and take a minimum wage. That's how I feel. Stupid and Naive and Immature as it sounds.

Me? Give up? Lose Faith?

No way. Didn't Jesus say that if one had faith the size of a mustard seed, he could call a tree to uproot itself and throw itself into the sea? I am keeping the faith that God can help my eyesight recover and soon I will hopefully have less than 300 degrees of myopia both eyes. I think that is a reasonable request for a lifelong dream. So I pray and hope that this would happen for me. That I would be able to live my dream because we only live once and I want life to be meaningful. Because all I know is that without this...Life is rather meaningless. Yeah, i know it sounds pretty shallow and narrow. But that is how much I love flying. Because we only live once.

Bottom line. I will not give up no matter the odds. My eyesight will improve enough for me to get into SIA and maybe they'll change the rules in future that will allow me in. But I'll just pray that I can just become an SIA pilot in future. So God Help me. I am keeping the faith. You have done wonders for cousin Jason and others. So Lord please...Help me here. Amen.

Meant to fly.

I was meant to fly. Of that I am sure. But I know that I was meant to fly for life. I wanna fly for Singapore Airlines or Silk Air. I was thinking through it all. That's what I want in life. I am willing to go through all the sacrifices that come with it. The Jet lag, strict Captains, rigid training and the like. Now there is hope...if I can somehow get my eyesight to below 6/60...I would be able to go in. And I know I will not fail or get chopped when I am in.

So now...I pray to You Lord...that you would allow my dreams to come true. I can't do this without your help Lord... So...Help me please. Amen.

Shattered Dreams....{Will Never Give Up}

Maybe God did not meant for me to fly B747s....B777s or even A340s.
Maybe God did not meant for me to fly F-16s....F-5s or even A-4s.
Maybe God did not meant for me to fly Apaches...Super Pumas or even Hueys.

But I know God had meant for me to fly. Even if it aint gonna be the hottest planes in the business... I have chased my dreams...the best I can...I have accomplished that dream of flying... Now i want to earn my Wings. Maybe I can't become a Fighter pilot or an Airline pilot....But as long I have my Wings...I can fly Cessnas, Pipers, Socatas... As long i have my Wings...I will be in the family of pilots.
For that I am grateful...... and hopeful that somehow..the rules in the near future would allow me to fly Boeings...

As long as I am alive...I will not give up. I still have that dream to fly airliners or dogfight...Somehow maybe a miracle might happen (When it comes to God, Who knows?)


My promise that no matter the odds...no matter how impossible...I still will never give up. But then...for now I think I better aim in another direction...I do have other dreams yupz...

screwed

I am so damn pissed man. I have a total of 18 hrs 15 mins of flight time. BECAUSE of a ******** screw up by both the CAAS and Darshan abt his FI flying license....Me(Blazer), Chris(Mad Dog), ZhiChen(Loxodon) and Jeff(Doc) and many others have our flight time since jan 7 void for our PPL...it can onli be counted valid after we get our PPL...WTF...Lucky Darshan sae he will reimburse...If not I would have sued. My RTP oso must be delayed until late May.....F*** F*** the CAAS...F*** them six ways to Sunday.....Bastards...Wasted all my time.

Went to visit Chris at the hospital today because of his Op on his foot. Kept him company for abt 4hrs plus haha. Got some sweat absorber for headphones... He said he'll talk to some other instructors at yfc or RSFC and ask them if they wld be able to help. Then i wunt have to spend this April on the ground. Its real frustrating to be unable to fly away from problems. Well...Its just being unable to fly tt bugs me.
Its like...ur standing at the fence blocking you from just walking to the airplane you love so much... That beautiful girl(plane) just sits there waiting for you to get in and take her up. Frustrating man.....

At least I have experience of flying liao...and i get to reduce cost at the expense of my time. In my opinion it aint a good deal...Time is Money. maybe more precious than that.